we need a resolution

I feel as an aspiring writer I should post more in my blog. I love the internet, makes it easier to write. Obviously right now I have a ton of time on my hands, considering I am off today.

I am seriously going to try to post everyday or at least every other day.

I did not go to class today, I was supposed to go kayaking instead but when my alarm went off at 4:45 I said to myself, “helllll naw”. I fell asleep again and called Christopher at 6:35am. A little too late to go kayaking. So I missed class for nothing, well maybe not, It’s that time of the month so I have cramps. So I am going tomorrow. Should be tons of fun, hopefully i don’t drop my camera like I did my phone. A phone is a phone, but the pictures I had in there, I wanted to cry. I love making memories and was bummed because all my pictures were gone. So tomorrow there’s going to be a bunch of pictures. I really need to get myself a camera of my own. I hate using my moms, I feel like I’m going to lose it. I know I have no transitions but whatever.

I am off and brrrrooookkke! White chicks is on the telly, and really I can’t seem to get bored of it. I saw it yesterday at Christopher’s pad, as well as the Invasion. It was okay, completely different than what I had in mind.

Two weeks ago I got shit faced drrrunk, which wasn’t my plan. I felt really bad about it and am avoiding alcohol. Everyone that was with me was drrrunk as well but not like me. Jamira drove my car and ran my side view mirror into something and it came off. When I asked her what happened she just said uhhh “umm I don’t remember’ of course she wouldn’t. More bullshit and bullshit. End results, I lose my sideview mirror, Jamira gets beat up by her ex, and I lose my ipod. I really do not understand that girl. I do not.

Last Friday and Saturday:

Went out with Adriana and met her friends Tara and Denise. Cool girls. Friday was pure drama. I love my friends but girls are just DRAMA. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. Anyway, went to some party, it was cool. I wasn’t drinking though and Adriana kept running around saying hi to everyone so I had to become better friends with two girls I just met. Really glad they were cool though. The party got raided and there were cops outside. Intoxicated Adriana, Denise and myself decided to go to Adriana’s friends house. On the drive there drama drama drama, Adriana ended up crying and Denise and I ended up leaving her because she was being stubborn, Adriana basically told Denise she didn’t want to be friends anymore because Denise could lie to her divorcee about sleeping with another man but cannot lie to him about dropping ecstasy. Denise told me the her story after we left Adriana, (which was something I didn’t want to do BUT Adriana was being stubborn and I was driving Denise’s car.)I felt bad for leaving Adriana all the way in Hawthorne but I can’t force a stubborn intoxicated person into a car. I ended up sleeping over at Chris’ who was irritated that I called him around 2ish and he was supposed to go fishing. Didn’t happen haha.

Saturday:

Was better, except for the end. I mean Jamira is a cool girl but, she still acts like a naive high schooler. Went to another party Adriana invited me too. It was cool, took Jamira with me because Carol (who was the one that planned out going out) decided to ditch us for her ex whom treated her like shit and always cheated on her. I mean if she wants a man like that, then so be it. But what was stupid was that SHE herself planned going out and lied lied lied. She was supposed to “wait till 10 because Carla and Elder were going to take her” and they told their mom they were going midnight bowling. Bullshit. Ended up going to the twins(Carol and Carla) house and saw Carla leaving with Elder, no Carol in sight. I went because Carol was going to let me borrow a jacket. I did get the jacket, then Carla tells me “were going to go get drinks” LIE. She ends up leaving with Elder and goes and eats. I mean really I am not going to get hurt if you decide to do something else, just fucking tell me, don’t have me fucking guessing. What am I really going to do or say? Carla could’ve just said, “Ima go out and eat with Elder” and Carol could’ve answered her phone and said” Im just going to hang out with my ex”. But nooooo, they play games games games. This is the last time. Not going to happen anymore. It was just bullshit. I really don’t care if people get mad at me I’m only speaking the truth. Anywayy, went to the party with Jamira. Sergio was there, it wasn’t weird for me, but obviously it was for him. Jamira took a ton of shots and was fucking drrrunk. Jesse (ugly little wannabe grundge kid who DUMPED Jamira) calls her and says another party is “cracking” my dumbass decides to say okay why not. We end up going, a bunch of high school drunk ghetto wannabe kids. GRREEEAT! Right when I walk in I hear all these “eys” why do hispanic wannabe cholos insist on trying to get a girls attention by saying “ey”. I fucking hate it and I feel I am better than that. They wouldn’t leave me alone, I was with Jamira but they were just following me around all around me and it was fucking annoying. I wanted to leave considering that Jamira kept leaving me and saying hi to all her friends. Pissed off I started walking away. I told Jamira I am leaving with or without her. I was mad so I told jamira she is stupid, because she was on jesses’ sack, he dumped her and she was on his sack, kissing him, hugging her. I knew his motives were not good because they were only together for a week? I told her she was stupid, she was stupid, stupid. She didn’t want to go to that because it was ‘crackin’ she wanted to go because as Chris would put it “her panocha was on fire” for her fucking self-interest. and i know because she did this with her ex Ruben, when she was drunk, he beat her ass. She is my friend but she does not make the best decisions and I really feel i can’t trust her when she is intoxicated. I left and went over Christopher’s and slept over. I swear ew.

I should’ve just stayed at Adriana’s friends party.

Sergio kept texting me to go back.

That was last weekend.

My hands hurt now.